I Love You for A Thousand Years

A Thousand Years - Christina Perri

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

- Perfect song to close the magnificent year with. How was your 2011? It  sure felt like as though a thousand events happened in our lives. Each with its own significance, impact and long-lasting aftermath. I feel blessed having someone by my side all these years. A good 9 years.

- To a point of dependence and complacent. Slowly, my mind is drafting a set of resolutions that I know won't materialize 100%, but should set my path towards closing 2012 a much better person. I know I am able to, and it just falls back on how disciplined and broad-minded I can train myself to be.

- Icky, this may be ... but dear, I Love You. And nothing's gonna change that for another 9 .. or thousand years.

Screw It

Yeah. Things are not rosy from all sides. This year is ending with a horrendous thud. Instead of a bang.
Oh yeah. There will be HELL to pay.

I guarantee you that.

Mumford & Sons - The Cave

Mumford & Sons - The Cave

It's empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind


The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat


But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck


And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again


Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind


So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears


But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck


And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again


So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker's hand


So make your siren's call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say


Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be


And I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck


And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

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*Too random? This song is nominated for both Record of the Year and Song of the Year for Grammy's next year. Was taken aback too, since I have never heard of them, and the other guy/band named Bon Iver. 

*Watch this, listen to the lyrics and then go watch their live performances. One of the BEST revelations this year. Not that I have been listening to a lot of songs though. Blame it on the stagnant radio playlist ... still the same tunes blaring since the beginning of the year.

*A wet, wet weekend here in KL. Still raining as I am typing this. A lot of changes, and they will continue to come in weeks and months to come. Can't wait til the next getaway come Feb .... Hope this spirit will stay strong until then.

*Writing less and less, but I doubt there's anyone reading this anyway. :)

Adele - Turning Tables

Turning Tables - Adele

Close enough to start a war
All that I have is on the floor
God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I can't give you, what you think you give me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables

Under haunted skies I see you, ooh
Where love is lost, your ghost is found
I braved a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no I will never be knocked down

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me, no
I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I can't give you, what you think you give me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
Turning tables

Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
When the thunder calls for me
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet

I won't let you close enough to hurt me, no
I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I can't give you, what you think you give me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
Turning tables, yeah
Turning ohh

*Still one of the BEST live singer in the scene now.
*You just feel the emotions in every single syllable she belted out, live or recorded.
*Though currently not in such an emotional state of mind, lots (I mean LOTS) of things have and are still happening in our lives. So rapid changes that made us slightly torn apart from each other.
*But this 3 days weekend will be relished; a blessing that's much needed to counter the pains of .... turning tables. 

Rain Washes Away my Guilt

Beautiful Saturday here in KL. Just too perfect to pass this off as another run-of-the-mill weekend. Today's special, oh yeah. In more ways than one.

But I have sinned.

Damn. But it's all good now, are we even? :)

Baby, let's dance the night away and forget the sorrow.

Connected. Someone Like You. MP

A case of two hearts connected as one, the moment we listened to this tune on radio, we prompted each other to tune in almost at the same time. 

Ironically.

Though the gist of the song is more to hanging on to lost love, and secretly hoping for a reconciliation. Hehe .... a bit awkward, but still, a song that fits my current emotion ... though not in this beautiful relationship with the angelic devil of a (Simon)lover.

Oh yeah, let's do MP this Saturday. If you're reading this, come. Not often that we get to dance the night away amidst the restrictions. :)

The Whole 9 Years

It's almost magical. Impossible.

Tell me that it would last until the 5th, and I might have stifled a laugh and partly believed the potential.

Then the 7th year itch arrived just when we were holidaying on an island close to home. Wait, already SEVEN years?!!! OMG. Can get married, give birth and argue over $$ for milk powder jor.

IF normal couple lah ....

In the blink of an eye, it's already 9. The journey was bumpy, the trials and tribulations aplenty; and still coming in waves of merciless nature.

Yet, we have survived 9 whole years together.

I must be dreaming.

Wanna know how did we celebrate this momentous occasion? I'll let the maestro explains in his own words (intercepted by a hot shot or two, like always).

Reflections

The past 4 days have been good. Therapeutic, even. Who would have thought that a moment of silence can be so effective. The weekend's barely started, and here I am hoping that today's already Monday and I can jump in the fray of working my a$$ off. 

Just need timely distractions to get me through the difficult times. I don't need a hero. I need a break.

Happy Malaysia Day (a day late, I know). To those who have lost hope in the administration systems as of recent years, don't be. Be thankful that although the politics might be sucking your soul out of your core, the abundance of natural resources, beautiful landscapes, good people on the streets, delicious myriad of foods from different cultures and most of all ..... we're not constantly on the edge being threatened by natural disasters or warfare.

Maybe because of the contemplation, that we started to take things for granted .... forgetting to treasure the more important things, .... people in life.

Sammi Cheng - Letter To Myself

It does not matter if you understand Chinese or not. 

It does not matter if you have been there, done that ... or not.

It does not even matter if you had been through the trials and tribulations of life ... or not.

God is fair. You can NEVER have the BEST of days, without sacrificing something in return.

A Letter to Myself

The Letter  - Angela Aki

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?


For me who's 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone


If it's a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself


Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present


Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you


If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You'll be able to see the answer


The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow


Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt
But I'm living the bittersweet present


There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing


Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?


Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice


No matter era we're in
There's no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present


Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness

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Tegami

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata wa
Doko de nani wo shiteiru no darou

Juugo no boku ni wa dare ni mo hanasenai
Nayami no kanae ga aru no desu

Mirai no jibun ni atete kaku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchiake rareru darou

Ima makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shika nai kono mune ga nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru
Ima wo ikiteiru

Haikei arigatou juugo no anata ni
Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu
Jibun to wa nani de doko e mukau beki ka
Toitsu dzukereeba mietekuru

Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishibe e to yume no fune yo susume

Ima makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiaru keba ii no?
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite
Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai ima ikiteiru

Jinsei no subete ni imi ga aru kara
Osorezu ni anata no yume wo sodatete
La la la, la la la
Keep on believing
La la la, la la la,
Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing

Makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo shinji arukeba ii no?
Aa Makenaii de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiarukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai mo kanashimi mo
Sakete wa torenai keredo
Egao wo misete ima wo ikite yukou
Ima wo ikite yukou

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata ga
Shiawase na koto wo negaimasu


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*A very poignant song, and you can see from the video above how the children cried almost immediately after the song started. About the hardships, tribulations, and impending challenges in life of a 15 year-old child. 

*In case this tune sounds familiar, this has been covered in various languages; specifically in Cantonese by Sherman Chung, and Sammi has sung this in her concert before. And she cried too.

*Happy Mid-Autumn Festival to everyone. Or anyone who's reading this. Be thankful that you're by the side of your loved one(s). Don't ever take them for granted.