Life is all about the three above lately, I am afraid.
Came back from a whirlwind day trip to the metropolitan city on steroids today.
Age is catching up fast I suppose, with serious lethargy overwhelming me after the 400km+ drive, under the hot scorching sun. And bumpy suspension of my half decade's old rickety ride. Talk about being rocked till my socks are off!
Confusion? But why oh why? Currently at a crossroad, about to make a LIFE-CHANGING decision. Yup, that severe issue weighing on my mind now. Should I relocate or should I stay in my comfort zone? Had I decided to move, will this bode well with dear Simonlover?
Hmm, not exactly used to staying so close to each other now, ever since the years when we first started in university. Long distance relationship sounds forbidden, yet retaining that alluring charm of meeting up every now and then, passionately lusting/longing for each other after long periods of anonymity?
Frantic Pace of Life to drown me in the coming days. I shall be prepared. I shall stay strong. And I shall commit myself to a decision that might just turn the worlds around. Mine, and of course .... His.
You were in college working part time waiting tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of falling
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts
I say can you believe it?
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I could see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes
But we got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
And I remember that fight, 2:30 a.m.
As everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the goodbye
'Cause that's all I've ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said I'll never leave you alone
You said I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine
Hold on, make it last
Hold on, never turn back
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
I can see it
I can see it now
* Initially this tune did nothing much for us. After repeated plays on the local airwaves, the catchy chorus caught on, and I found myself humming along ......
Her rendition of "Innocent" at the recent MTV VMA 2010 was so poignant & timeless. Innocent (tentatively named, as the song is not released yet) is a song she wrote for Kanye West; no thanks to that infamous interruption at the MTV VMA last year.
* Then to my surprise, the song Mine was already on Neway Karaoke's song selection !!! Hands down the BEST place to belt your favourite tunes without paying an arm and a leg, it only cost you RM9.80+ for a 2 hours plus karaoke session, complete with lunch on a weekday! On the weekends, the price climbs to RM16+, but you get a better selection of food. Of course, if you're a member, you can even sing on weekdays for half the price! MADNESS!!!!
* Simonlover has never been a fan of Taylor Swift's. Never blamed him, for country music's not his thang. Except Shania Twain from a decade or so ago. Or the probably mummified auntified Lee Ann Rimes from the Jurassic age. :)
* But the video for Mine was so good, telling stories like how Taylor's videos have always tried to. Made us think whatever will happen to us in the near and distant future. A deep worrying thought embedded deep in our minds, though we tend not to speak about this.
Let's start the week on a High Note :
"Braced myself for the goodbye 'Cause that's all I've ever known Then you took me by surprise You said I'll never leave you alone ...."
Probably about time, I am about to go for a short getaway (okay, not sooo short, but still ....) with my dear. Lately the spirit is JUST not there. I wonder why.
Maybe the realization that life's definitely more than going through the motions. And there is so much more to savour, relish, taste, breathe in and suffer out there. In short, I need a break from all these sh*t.
There. I made that crystal clear. Keeping my fingers crossed for a brighter path ahead. Seeking the greener pastures somewhere out there.
Happiness hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with her drink
And washed it away down the kitchen sink
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run
Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your longing behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
Because here they come
And I never wanted anything from you
Except everything you had and what was left after that too, oh
Happiness hit her like a bullet in the head
Struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
Because here they come
Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your loving, your loving behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
Because here they come
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run
(The video for this song won an award for technicality - Best Art Direction in the recent MTV Video Music Awards. Pity they did not win any major award, albeit nominated for four awards including the coveted Video of the Year award that went to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance)
This tune is one of my personal favourites of the year. Mixing pop, folk, rock and dance genres all into one, the song plays out beautifully. And her performance at the MTV VMA was simply the BEST in my opinion. Though Eminem/Rihanna's performance of Not Afraid-Love The Way You Lie was voted as such.
The term DOG DAYS refer to the period when life's at its lowest, the ho-hum/trying times when everything seems to fall into pieces. I have had those times, especially when it comes to relationship matters.
Not everything's rosy to upkeep a relationship of 7+ years. And definitely testing each other's patience, and the loyalty/trust issue comes into play when me and my loved one stay so far apart from each other.
"Leave all your loving, your loving behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive ..."
Life without LOVE, will only creates a vacuum. Soul-less physical bodies with no sense of direction nor purpose. LOVE not necessarily means you must be attached, married, engaged, or even lusted over.
Love from family members, friends, loved ones and even colleagues is equally as important, fueling that omnipresent desire to be caressed, touched, kissed, hugged and appreciated. :)
So, are you having your DOG DAYS now? Or are they finally OVER?
It's a well known fact that we Malaysians love to eat. No, make that BINGE instead. 6 meals a day sounds normal enough, though in some countries this would probably create havoc or frowned upon.
Not to say that having more meals per day is NOT good. Instead, you know that we should eat more meals but in smaller portions, to fuel the body and not deprive our bodies from the nutrients they need. Having LARGE meals 3 times daily sounds like the norm, but instead the sudden spike and drop in blood glucose (sugar) level is detrimental, especially to diabetic patients and the elderly.
And no, I am not advocating for a daily 6 meals of the grandest gluttony frenzy. I don't mean roti canai for breakfast followed by nasi lemak for tea break then nasi campur for lunch. Phew. Then for tea break again nasi dagang and teh tarik followed by dinner of nasi berlauk (with dozens more dishes this time around!) again then culminating in a most caloric-horror of various sweet kuih-muih and kopi extra kaw & manis.
I assure you in 5 years time you will be huffing and puffing while climbing the stairs. And in 10, you'd be happy not to be bed-ridden or sucking on an inhaler.
Everything should be done in moderation. Yes, even the nightly routine of copulation ie. bodies dancing in unison in the dark. For sure you wouldn't wanna be caught in hand cuffs, leather straps and stuck in a military position when the EMT's coming around with a stretcher and emergency oxygen supply.
Okay, silly post I know. But when your brain's infused with shots of whisky and red wine, with greasy pizzas, fried chicken and whatever nonsense we chucked during the casual feast-cum-gathering-cum-merry-making, you can't help but wish that someone's on his knees to blow your cock mind off.
In a flash, September's drawing to a close. We Malaysians are blessed with so many public holidays, it's not even funny anymore. Seriously.
This month alone, we have the Raya celebrations; the holy month of Syawal superseding the fasting month of Ramadan. Two days off, but to some the Saturday was a waste. Since most private companies and all the government organizations practise the 5 days working week ruling now. Shucks you say?
No worries. Starting this year, we have Hari Malaysia. A celebration to commemorate the forming of Malaysia back in 1963, on September the 16th. Of course, Singapore has since broken free from this coalition. (Smart move? No comment ....) But to those living in East Malaysia (or the Borneo continent; namely Sabah and Sarawak), this is a cause for rejoice. Wait, I was told that they have been enjoying this Hari Malaysia holiday since aeons ago. Oh well. Then the ones in Peninsular Malaysia can jump now?
Whatever it is, the BIG day is coming soon. With the 3rd of October marked on the calendar, I am biting my fingernails with glee and anticipation. No, NOT for the second season of Glee, though that should be coming to our shores before the end of the year. Love the Britney/Brittany snippets available on Youtube now.
But let's say, this should be a cause for celebration. The end of the Seven Year Itch.
Now dear. Should we go for Steaks? Seafood? Japanese? Or plain mind-numbing union of the sweaty, pheromone-infused bodies? Your call.
8tv, a local channel is airing Moonlight Resonance, a legendary TVB drama that emphasizes particularly on the importance of family ties, trials and tribulations of life, and how a close knit family spends the entire 40 episodes or so bickering over trivial issues, major conflicts, and ultimately everything comes into place.
Happy Ending for All.
How sweet if REAL life mimics REEL life to some extent. Or in its entirety, when we know for sure that no matter how bleak the outlook may be, at the end of the day, life's all rosy and cheery.
I am trying to stay on a positive note here, but who am I kidding. Right? :)
HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL, PEOPLE!
* And if you're fortunate enough to be enjoying your piece of mooncake (whatever funky flavours they come in now ...) with your loved one(s), then please count your blessings. Don't argue over petty issues, throwing tantrums erratically and jeopardizing your relationship. Not worth looking back over the years and regretting that impulsive urge to walk out from the doors.
I wonder if anyone reads this blog. Or anyone cares?
After all, Horny BF may not be your idea of a superstar, writer, reviewer, pornstar or what-nots, but definitely someone with a strong opinions on things.
Everything.
From who should have won the MTV VMA recently, to politicians bickering on the media and (maybe)drinking teh tarik together behind the scene, enjoying the charade that is lusciously guzzled up by the gossip-hungry masses.
Oh ... and why the name Horny BF? Hmm, maybe I will let that one be explained by itself, once someone discovers/stumbles upon this quaint little space that I own on the web.
Happy Mid Autumn Festival, dear strangers. Go eat some mooncakes now, or deliver them to Horny BF. Virtually. :)
Did I say something stupid? There goes one more mistake Do I bore you with my problems? Is that why you turn away? Do you know how hard I tried To become what you want me to be?
Take me This is all that I've got This is all that I'm not All that I'll ever be I've got flaws, I've got faults Keep searching for your perfect heart It doesn't matter who you are We all have our scars We all have our scars
You say don't act like a child But what if its a father I need? Its not like you don't know what you got yourself into Don't tell me I'm the one who's naive Do you know how hard I've tried To become who you want me to be?
Take me This is all that I've got This is all that I'm not All that I'll ever be I've got flaws, I've got faults Keep searching for your perfect heart It doesn't matter who you are We all have our scars We all have our scars
Come on, just let it go These are things you can't control Your expectations, your explainations Don't make sense to me You and your alternatives Don't send me to your therapists Deep down, I know what you mean And I'm not sure that's what I wanna be No
Take me This is all that I've got This is all that I'm not All that I'll ever be I've got flaws, I've got faults Keep searching for your perfect heart It doesn't matter who you are We all have our scars We all have our scars Oh no no no
Did I say something stupid There goes one more mistake..
Strong word, INFIDELITY.
I have endured too much pain.
Countless arguments. Breakups. But still I hoped that YOU would somehow change your ways.
To turn around and start to appreciate the little things in life.
The simpler things in life.
All I can think about now is how fucking stupid I have always been.
And the same old, filthy image replaying on my mind. Again and again and again. I did not manage to satisfy you one bit. But instead you resorted to other means to please your cravings. I am but a mere nobody to you.
