Tomorrow's the BIG Day.

Kind of anxious.

After months of anticipation, procrastination, and destruction of thousands of grey matter, I finally made up my mind. And tomorrow would be the first major step. 

I drafted that letter. I had my own pep talk (to myself). And I am ready for the impending consequences.

A major leap, but who knows what the future may bring?

Please, please, please let there be LIGHT at the end of the tunnel.

A Monotonous Monday Made Right

Since that Sneak Peek post on Simonlover's blog officially set off all the (wrong) alarms, let me continue this menace by posting one nude shot of my own.

NOT. 

Haha, I mean come on ... who wanna see Horny BF in his birthday suit, in all his hairy/fatty/slutty glory? :) Some might even prefer to watch paint dry. Or grasses grow. Or in some cases, the pubes grow and trimmed and savoured ...... (Slurp. Who doesn't love freshly-shaven pubes and balls, hands up?!)

Anyway, the recent weeks have been chaotic. I have been down to Klang Valley for almost every two weeks, and some weeks even in a successive fashion. So much so that I witnessed that disastrous clash on the highway when the whole chunk of a gantry (those signboards above the roads) fell on the unsuspecting victim driving a mini lorry from the opposite direction. 

Aunt saw the aftermath (bloodied body and all) from the other side while making her way up north, while thankfully my incessant cravings took us for a stopover in a small town before Kuala Lumpur, hence missing the event by an hour or so. Thank goodness for that.

Yup, and I am overjoyed knowing that soon enough, both me and Simon might be staying together, or at least within half an hour or so from each other. Instead of the 2 hours journey in between the magnetically (erotically?) attracted bodies. The longing ........ =_=

Keeping my hopes up for a change in life. VERY big leap, but as of now, I feel like taking on the world. Or at least, humping up some rears ...... ;)

Just Kidding. Happy week ahead people!

Three Shouts of Joy?

Good things come in THREES. And I do hope that money grows on TREES ....

Good news, as I'm up for TWO interviews on back to back Fridays, and a job practically waiting for me to accept. Just that the offer has not reached my door yet.

Or rather, my mailbox yet. The bane of technology? You'd hoped and prayed that everything's at your door inbox within few hours.

When people from the olden days wait days and weeks for their snail mails. 

I can't even remember the last time I received a penned-letter. Plain ink on white paper. Maybe perfumed to an acceptable extent. Oh you know how they designed those greeting cards.

Wait, WHAT greeting cards? Have I lost it? Come on .. people send E-greeting cards. No more Hallmark bullshits pushed into envelopes with tingling melodies and a fragrant nuance. 

However, technology kills creativity and warmth.

Or did it somehow .... HELP in cultivating a more sociable community? I mean, Malaysia' TOP of the Facebook survey; we the 'friendliest' of the lot. Brazil coming in a close second.

MALAYSIA BOLEH? I think the movie The Social Network (to be screened pretty soon) should have a second chapter in the works. And please please please mention Malaysia somewhere in there. After all, the small community of 27 million or so beats the 300 million+ people from the States when it comes to friends on FB. 

"Friends?" You gotta be kidding me. Maybe friends to donate their donkeys, horses and what-nots for your Farm, or donating chips in Texas Hold Em Poker. Or you just plain crave for that thousandth mark on your Friends list? Selling something perhaps, and believe in the power of social media with a whole hearted approach?

Oh, and I do hope the Malaysian Book of Records capitalize on this fact. Imagine the image of Malaysia being spoken along the likes of Facebook, Google, Mark Suckerbutt Zuckerberg, etc. After all, in the papers today someone DID travel for more than 1000km by reversing his car, AND assisted by three patrol cars. A case of nothing better to do?

Genius? Highly doubtful. Unless you consider the monkeys working behind the big BUDGET to be of a fine pedigree. To imagine another skyscraper yet not the tallest in the world or even in Asia. For the sake of leaving a legacy behind, a 100-storey tower HAD to be built. In 10 years time, Warisan Merdeka should be the NEW pride and joy of Malaysians.

How about the Twin Towers then? Neglected and left to rot? Come on ..... the BILLIONS can be used in a more beneficial and productive manner. UNLESS of course, the tower's supposed to be used to house the homeless, strays, orphans and elderly. Then I can vouch for the erection (pardon the pun) of the tower with one of my own.

I mean, a VOTE of my own. Since the election's coming pretty soon (considered soon enough, given the aggressive fishing ploy), merely giving incentives in the form of RM500 for civil servants, and upping the maternity leaves to 90 days just won't cut it.

Ahem, RM500 can barely buy you two cuts of good Wagyu steaks. Let alone pay for a month's worth of car installment. 

Back to the topic at hand; Wish Me Luck dear strangers. For after the next Friday, I would have known where's my next destination on this express line called LIFE.

You've Got The Love - Florence + The Machine

This song was first sung by The Source and Candi Staton way back in 1986. I was a mere toddler back then, haven't even developed a proper hard-on to work the limbs with. Read about the song's history on Wikipedia HERE.

Florence + The Machine has been one of my favourite act this year, thanks to that memorable and invigorating performance of their killer hit, "Dog Days Are Over" at the recent MTV VMA.

Weekend's beckoning. Should be a fully restorative two days, but succumbing to deadlines for submission of articles. Damn, I wonder how people work part time, when a 9-5 job's already so so taxing.

You've Got The Love - Florence + The Machine

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying "Lord I just don't care"
But you've got the love I need To see me through

Sometimes it seems that the going is just too rough
And things go wrong no matter what I do
Now and then it seems that life is just too much
But you've got the love I need to see me through

When food is gone you are my daily meal
When friends are gone I know my savior's love is real
Your love is real

You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love

Time after time I think "Oh Lord what's the use?"
Time after time I think it's just no good
Sooner or later in life, the things you love you loose
But you got the love I need to see me through

You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying "Lord I just don't care"
But you've got the love I need to see me through

You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love
You got the love

8 Years of Bliss. Not?

Yup, this is a sudden, out of the blue post. I was expecting so much more from our eighth anniversary. Yes, not one , not two, not even five but EIGHT whole years of sticking to each other, through thick and thin. And tornadoes and volcanoes and thunderstorms.

At the end of the day, I could not even remember what happened on Oct 3rd. It was a Sunday, yes. But we don't even go all out for a dinner (far from wine and dine), buy each other gifts, or even murmuring those precious (over-rated?) 3 words.

Have we mellowed over the 8 years of being together? The passion runs out of steam, flame extinguished, goals in life changed, OR ... am I lying to myself here?

Who am I kidding? This type of relationship NEVER works, right?

So let me wallow in my sorrow and keep my fingers crossed for a much belated gift. Or for him to fulfill his promise in throwing a grand celebration of an anniversary; a well overdue trip down south to the land of the metrosexuals. 

Wishful thinking? Maybe. But somewhere deep in the corners of my heart, I pray for a miracle. We are at a crossroad now. At least I am. But will you be there for me?

Fatigue. ConFusion. Frantic.

Life is all about the three above lately, I am afraid.

Came back from a whirlwind day trip to the metropolitan city on steroids today.

Age is catching up fast I suppose, with serious lethargy overwhelming me after the 400km+ drive, under the hot scorching sun. And bumpy suspension of my half decade's old rickety ride. Talk about being rocked till my socks are off!

Confusion? But why oh why? Currently at a crossroad, about to make a LIFE-CHANGING decision. Yup, that severe issue weighing on my mind now. Should I relocate or should I stay in my comfort zone? Had I decided to move, will this bode well with dear Simonlover?

Hmm, not exactly used to staying so close to each other now, ever since the years when we first started in university. Long distance relationship sounds forbidden, yet retaining that alluring charm of meeting up every now and then, passionately lusting/longing for each other after long periods of anonymity? 

Frantic Pace of Life to drown me in the coming days. I shall be prepared. I shall stay strong. And I shall commit myself to a decision that might just turn the worlds around. Mine, and of course .... His.  

Mine - Taylor Swift

You were in college working part time waiting tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of falling
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts

I say can you believe it?
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I could see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

And I remember that fight, 2:30 a.m.
As everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye
'Cause that's all I've ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said I'll never leave you alone

You said I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine

Hold on, make it last
Hold on, never turn back
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
I can see it
I can see it now

* Initially this tune did nothing much for us. After repeated plays on the local airwaves, the catchy chorus caught on, and I found myself humming along ......

Her rendition of "Innocent" at the recent MTV VMA 2010 was so poignant & timeless. Innocent (tentatively named, as the song is not released yet) is a song she wrote for Kanye West; no thanks to that infamous interruption at the MTV VMA last year.

* Then to my surprise, the song Mine was already on Neway Karaoke's song selection !!! Hands down the BEST place to belt your favourite tunes without paying an arm and a leg, it only cost you RM9.80+ for a 2 hours plus karaoke session, complete with lunch on a weekday! On the weekends, the price climbs to RM16+, but you get a better selection of food. Of course, if you're a member, you can even sing on weekdays for half the price! MADNESS!!!!

* Simonlover has never been a fan of Taylor Swift's. Never blamed him, for country music's not his thang. Except Shania Twain from a decade or so ago. Or the probably mummified auntified Lee Ann Rimes from the Jurassic age.  :)

* But the video for Mine was so good, telling stories like how Taylor's videos have always tried to. Made us think whatever will happen to us in the near and distant future. A deep worrying thought embedded deep in our minds, though we tend not to speak about this.

Let's start the week on a High Note : 

"Braced myself for the goodbye
'Cause that's all I've ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said I'll never leave you alone ...."

Off For A Well-Deserved Break ...

Probably about time, I am about to go for a short getaway (okay, not sooo short, but still ....) with my dear. Lately the spirit is JUST not there. I wonder why.

Maybe the realization that life's definitely more than going through the motions. And there is so much more to savour, relish, taste, breathe in and suffer out there. In short, I need a break from all these sh*t.

There. I made that crystal clear. Keeping my fingers crossed for a brighter path ahead. Seeking the greener pastures somewhere out there.

With love,

A Slightly Pissed Horny BF.

Dog Days Are Over - Florence And The Machine

Happiness hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with her drink
And washed it away down the kitchen sink

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run

Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your longing behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
Because here they come

And I never wanted anything from you
Except everything you had and what was left after that too, oh
Happiness hit her like a bullet in the head
Struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
Because here they come

Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your loving, your loving behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
Because here they come

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run 

(The video for this song won an award for technicality - Best Art Direction in the recent MTV Video Music Awards. Pity they did not win any major award, albeit nominated for four awards including the coveted Video of the Year award that went to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance)

This tune is one of my personal favourites of the year. Mixing pop, folk, rock and dance genres all into one, the song plays out beautifully. And her performance at the MTV VMA was simply the BEST in my opinion. Though Eminem/Rihanna's performance of Not Afraid-Love The Way You Lie was voted as such. 

The term DOG DAYS refer to the period when life's at its lowest, the ho-hum/trying times when everything seems to fall into pieces. I have had those times, especially when it comes to relationship matters. 

Not everything's rosy to upkeep a relationship of 7+ years. And definitely testing each other's patience, and the loyalty/trust issue comes into play when me and my loved one stay so far apart from each other.

"Leave all your loving, your loving behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive ..."

Life without LOVE, will only creates a vacuum. Soul-less physical bodies with no sense of direction nor purpose. LOVE not necessarily means you must be attached, married, engaged, or even lusted over.

Love from family members, friends, loved ones and even colleagues is equally as important, fueling that omnipresent desire to be caressed, touched, kissed, hugged and appreciated. :)

So, are you having your DOG DAYS now? Or are they finally OVER?

A Friday Feast & Mind Gone Bonkers

It's a well known fact that we Malaysians love to eat. No, make that BINGE instead. 6 meals a day sounds normal enough, though in some countries this would probably create havoc or frowned upon.

Not to say that having more meals per day is NOT good. Instead, you know that we should eat more meals but in smaller portions, to fuel the body and not deprive our bodies from the nutrients they need. Having LARGE meals 3 times daily sounds like the norm, but instead the sudden spike and drop in blood glucose (sugar) level is detrimental, especially to diabetic patients and the elderly.

And no, I am not advocating for a daily 6 meals of the grandest gluttony frenzy. I don't mean roti canai for breakfast followed by nasi lemak for tea break then nasi campur for lunch. Phew. Then for tea break again nasi dagang and teh tarik followed by dinner of nasi berlauk (with dozens more dishes this time around!) again then culminating in a most caloric-horror of various sweet kuih-muih and kopi extra kaw & manis.

I assure you in 5 years time you will be huffing and puffing while climbing the stairs. And in 10, you'd be happy not to be bed-ridden or sucking on an inhaler.

Everything should be done in moderation. Yes, even the nightly routine of copulation ie. bodies dancing in unison in the dark. For sure you wouldn't wanna be caught in hand cuffs, leather straps and stuck in a military position when the EMT's coming around with a stretcher and emergency oxygen supply.

Okay, silly post I know. But when your brain's infused with shots of whisky and red wine, with greasy pizzas, fried chicken and whatever nonsense we chucked during the casual feast-cum-gathering-cum-merry-making, you can't help but wish that someone's on his knees to blow your cock mind off. 

Damn the longing. Zzzz .....