Ten Years

I Know You Care - Ellie Goulding

Clinging to me
Like a last breath you would breathe
You were like home to me
I don't recognize this street
Please don't close your eyes
Don't know where to look without them
Outside the cars speed by

I've never heard them until now
I know you care
I know it is always been there
But there is trouble ahead I can feel it
You were just saving yourself when you hide it
Yeah I know you care
I see it in the way you stare
As if there was trouble ahead and you knew it
I'll be saving myself from the ruin
And I know you care

I used to run down the stairs
To the door and I thought you were there
To shape to comfort of us
Two lovers locked out of love
Oh, but I know you care
I know it is always been there
But there is trouble ahead I can feel it
You were just saving yourself when you hide it
Yeah I know you care
I see it in the way you stare
As if there was trouble ahead and you knew it
I'll be saving myself from the ruin

I know it wasn't always wrong
But i've never known a winter so cold
No I don't want my hands in the cold
But I still hope
Cause this is how things ought to have been
And I know the words are there
Wasn't all that it seemed
Why can't I dream
Why can't I dream
Cause I know you care
And I know you care
I know you care
I know you care
I know it's always been there

- I don't know where to start, but I guess 10 years anniversary does not come often in a relationship. It still has not dawned on me that this could be the start of something new. Have things changed, or are they still the same since 2002? 

Skinny Love? Nah ...

Two months without a post. I think this space on the web can 'chup lup' (lingkup, close shop) already. Just too overwhelmed with events in life lately. Been down for about a week now, but thankfully someone's there to take care of this fatty.

Just fell in love with this song. A cover of Bon Iver's song; Skinny Love, this 15 years old girl can really belt out a tune with such emotion, it's touching all the right notes and nerves.

It's close to 2 months now that we have stayed together. Although periodically there will be moments of loneliness when Simonlover's away back at his home, yet every 'home'coming is still embraced with much anticipation, and endearment. 

Happy Easter's Day.

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up

Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmm ...


When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up


And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find


'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up


I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.


I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up 

* I am NOT giving up on us. Never.
* No plans for Valentine's yet, but I am sure the coming trip to the city of Sin would do just fine.
* Times are rough, and tempers flared, but at the end of the day ... we're just human. 

The Countdown Begins

2 more days. Wondering if this is a wise move, or vice versa. But I guess the move is imminent. After all, it has been a detrimental 5 years apart.

Spring cleaning in the midst of CNY to welcome one heck of a tenant in two days' time.

How to Set Fire To The Rain?

Simply astonishing vocals there. And this was when she had a bad throat/vocal cord condition, it seems.

A sigh of relief, as something finally come to an end. A deep breath of satisfaction. Yet, with melancholic nuances somewhere in there. 

I can't wait for the New Year to come, so that I can stuff myself crazy with the abundance of food at home.

Never had the best of days, I guess. Something come, and something go. 

Damn, I could use a shoulder to lean on now .....

Good night, and hope that it will REALLY rain soon. I am sticky and sweaty (no erotic thoughts, pls) eventhough I just showered and now seated stark naked in front of my pc.

"Let It Burn ....."

Infatuation. Obsession. Dependence.

Now this could have been a very VERY serious post. But then again ... Horny BF is a little bit wobbly from the sudden stash of workload heaped onto this poor soul with a penchant for sleeping, eating and lazing around. A very cold smack in the face of sorts.

Last Saturday was cool. More like an induction for some, and maintenance for others. ;)

Okay, so I slutted a little bit. But you know there's a price to pay for being the Horny me. Shall not elaborate, but nothing rocked our relationship, that's for sure. Though I can slowly sense ..... insecurity, perhaps?

Sorry dear. The hormones are doing their bit, upsetting this equilibrium. After CNY everything will be okay. Seriously. Or much worse. Yeah ... I must draw my lines well. 

For now ... Good Night horny people. You know who you are. 

And why the Infatuation part? Let's just say that ... there's this person that I have been meeting on a daily basis, even more than Simon himself. And I'm being portrayed as being infatuated? Awww ... come on dear, you know me better than that! :)

I Love You for A Thousand Years

A Thousand Years - Christina Perri

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

- Perfect song to close the magnificent year with. How was your 2011? It  sure felt like as though a thousand events happened in our lives. Each with its own significance, impact and long-lasting aftermath. I feel blessed having someone by my side all these years. A good 9 years.

- To a point of dependence and complacent. Slowly, my mind is drafting a set of resolutions that I know won't materialize 100%, but should set my path towards closing 2012 a much better person. I know I am able to, and it just falls back on how disciplined and broad-minded I can train myself to be.

- Icky, this may be ... but dear, I Love You. And nothing's gonna change that for another 9 .. or thousand years.

Screw It

Yeah. Things are not rosy from all sides. This year is ending with a horrendous thud. Instead of a bang.
Oh yeah. There will be HELL to pay.

I guarantee you that.

Mumford & Sons - The Cave

Mumford & Sons - The Cave

It's empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind


The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat


But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck


And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again


Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind


So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears


But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck


And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again


So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker's hand


So make your siren's call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say


Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be


And I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck


And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

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*Too random? This song is nominated for both Record of the Year and Song of the Year for Grammy's next year. Was taken aback too, since I have never heard of them, and the other guy/band named Bon Iver. 

*Watch this, listen to the lyrics and then go watch their live performances. One of the BEST revelations this year. Not that I have been listening to a lot of songs though. Blame it on the stagnant radio playlist ... still the same tunes blaring since the beginning of the year.

*A wet, wet weekend here in KL. Still raining as I am typing this. A lot of changes, and they will continue to come in weeks and months to come. Can't wait til the next getaway come Feb .... Hope this spirit will stay strong until then.

*Writing less and less, but I doubt there's anyone reading this anyway. :)

Adele - Turning Tables

Turning Tables - Adele

Close enough to start a war
All that I have is on the floor
God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I can't give you, what you think you give me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables

Under haunted skies I see you, ooh
Where love is lost, your ghost is found
I braved a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no I will never be knocked down

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me, no
I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I can't give you, what you think you give me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
Turning tables

Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
When the thunder calls for me
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet

I won't let you close enough to hurt me, no
I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I can't give you, what you think you give me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
Turning tables, yeah
Turning ohh

*Still one of the BEST live singer in the scene now.
*You just feel the emotions in every single syllable she belted out, live or recorded.
*Though currently not in such an emotional state of mind, lots (I mean LOTS) of things have and are still happening in our lives. So rapid changes that made us slightly torn apart from each other.
*But this 3 days weekend will be relished; a blessing that's much needed to counter the pains of .... turning tables.